If I Never See Your Face Again

"..If I never see your face again, I don't mind. Cause we've gone much further than I thought we'll get tonight..."

My favorite song out of Maroon 5's "It Won't Be Soon Before Long" album with a twist!

Rihanna is in it! Whees~ I couldn't believe my ears when I heard it on the radio while bathing. I thought the DJ must have made some mistake. UNTIL! I heard Rihanna's voice.

Well....I don't think their voice goes with each other's. But this song is meant to be a "duet" so it sounds more right and sexxay with a lady voice!(:

The video is not that fantabulous. Rihanna looked sexy in a few selected scenes. But the lead singer looks pretty good.

Anyways, ENJOY!

"...you're not my type but you can make me sway..."

Nicest Colleagues(:

Ever since yesterday afternoon, my mood has (had?) been pretty lousy. Probably due to a combination of factors such as the weather, fatigue and coke withdrawal.

I guess I must have looked and sound less cheery and bright than usual. My colleagues (or the uncles and aunties as I like to call them) noticed.

They are quite nice about it too(:

There's this colleague called Mr Koh whom I find pretty scary. He has those no nonsense kind of look and never talk to me or even smile at me like the others. But today, he came to my cubicle (my desk) and used the excuse of passing me a ATM instruction manual to talk to me(: And he smiled at me!

And then, another uncle and auntie came to my cubicle and offered me cakes! (: Chocolate and blueberry cakes at that!!! Whees~

Of course, my supervisor came over to pass me some chocolates from Switzerland!

Ohmy. How am I suppose to keep my chocolate ban? :D

The Twitter Dilemma.

I am feeling emo. And so as not to translate my emo-ness here today because this is a non-emo blog! So, I saw this pre-prepared post from 2 weeks ago. Here goes :

How useful Twitter is (are?) to you all boils down to the people you follow.

I mentioned in my AB214 presentation that one advantage of using Twitter is that you can receive/hear about news before they break. And you can hear the stuff that is not usually published on newspaper.

All these advantages are only yours IF you follow the right people.

But, how do you know who is the right person to follow? Unless you have been dabbling in the circle (locally and globally) for quite some time, it’s pretty hard to dice out and sieve out whom to follow. Especially if you are a newbie like me.

Of course, you can follow everyone who follows you and occasionally “snoop” around your friends’ followers or people they are following. Or use TweetScan to search for people who have the same interest as you (absolutely not reliable, in my opinion. find out why at end of post).

Eventually, you will end up following a huge number of people. Flooded with tweets left, right and center. Important tweets, useful tweets, garbage tweets. All these will end up flooding you and covering up tweet updates from friends.

So how? Any solutions? *shrugs*

To me, I am getting slightly tired of Twitter? Don’t get me wrong. I still like it because (as previously mentioned) I can post my snapshot thoughts there. But it’s not catching on with my friends! And I am shy(my friends are so going to die from laughter) and anti-social (okay, I just take a long time to warm up to people) so I am lazy to go actively hunt for friends.

Then there’s all those problems is facing these days.

It’s starting to irritate me *sigh*

I am sick of seeing this:

It used to be kind of cute! But after awhile, it's just BLEH!

Ok, Huishan, over and out!!

*Now, I know TweetScan allows to search for people to follow based on keywords or topics. But how reliable is that? For example, I am looking for someone who is as much of a ANTM fan as I am. So I go to TweetScan and search for "ANTM", and say..I found one and I decided to follow him since I think he likes ANTM too. BUT! It turns out that THAT was the only time he tweets about ANTM. It's a total waste of time?

WITS Presentation.

You know presentation is my first love after chocolate got dumped a few months back.

My supervisor very nicely invited me to a WITS presentation today(: WITS was a very HUGE deal back in secondary school. And apparently, it's quite a HUGE deal here too.

ANYWAY! Today is the day where teams from all the departments came to pitch their presentation to the judges. The winner team will move on to compete with teams from other boards.

I missed the first two presentations but the rest of the presentations are pretty okay but disappointing as well?

Presentation slides have poor color coordination, unreadable slides, improper alignment and all the little tiny faults in presentations that I hate and is/are essential to ensure that the PowerPoint will flow. I mean, RED background and BLACK words! HELLO?

Aesthetics aside. Their presentation skills are dull? They didn't stand up to present. They read from the script. Zero eye contact. No vocal texture. No body language *sigh* They didn't explain the charts!!

Into the project. I realised all of them need to attend HP102 and AB213 badly. To ensure the validity and reliability of their research and to increase the impact of their presentation(:

Okay, there's one team that is not too bad. But they are the only team with youngsters in it. So yeah. No offence, if any!

Anyways, it seems that the judges are set to have that team win even before they present? It was rather obvious because they just kind of schmooz and jump over the "comments from the floor" part.

HEY! I had some questions to asked! Like how do they attribute the increase in visitor counts to the website is unique? How do they ensure that the increase in number of tickets bought is because of increased number of buyers and not increased tickets bought by the same buyers? The figures are really questionable!

But the Q&A session was fogged over and I didn't get a chance to ask?

This just in! The young team won. BLEHS! I was rooting for mine!

*sigh* I thought I will be wow-ed away by my first exposure to "professional" presentations. But I'm not.

Anyhows, going to this presentation makes me realized that.....I miss presenting :(

When I'm 64(:

Been hearing it quite alot on Perfect 10. It's such a sweet song eh?

I'm such a sucker for oldies(:

the brother unit and I are angry.

The brother unit and I are angry with (at) my sister tonight.

Because as usual she is acting like a kid again. Both of us are angry at her and at our parents. We are angry that they pay attention to her every wimps and moans. It makes us feel kind of stupid for always forcing ourselves to be independent when they are more than happy for us my sister to be reliant on them.

We are not jealous.

Just angry with our sister.

Tonight, for example. She's got a toothache. Okay, fine. Maybe it was really painful. But it's 9pm at night! And she whines and made such a fuss over it that my mum got worry. So at 10pm, both of them rushed down to some dental clinic that opens till late.

Then the dentist told them that it's a wisdom tooth and they can have it removed tomorrow. But no! The sister wants it to remove now! Ignoring the fact that my mum is probably tired. So okay, they had the tooth removed immediately. And they just came home at 1am.

And when she came home, she keeps going on and on and on about how painful it is. She tried to not only whine to the parents but to the brother unit and me too. But both of us are pissed off at a) how inconsiderate she is to my mum and b) for acting like a kid. So we just ignored her.

Then she went to cry to my mum and my mum got mad at the brother unit and I. She asked us why we can't we be more considerate to my sister. And we are like o.O

I mean, come on! The brother unit removed 2 of his wisdom tooth on the same day last year and he could take care of himself! I had 4 of my teeth removed for braces and I took care of myself! I don't need my mum or dad to bring me my painkillers. OR! Worry about me! OR! Keep asking my mum to bring me back to the dentist because the pain was unbearable.

It was pain. But so what?! DEAL WITH IT!

Seriously. *sigh* Bed!

Bitch.

This is me. Ranting.

I really cannot stand couples. HUH? Yes, COUPLES!

Call it a case of sour grapes (吃不到葡萄，说葡萄酸) if you must. But I really can't stand couples.

Then again, maybe it's not couples that I can't stand.

It's the whole....erm....weak part that I can't stand. How should I put it?

I think the independent and bitchy part of me is at work again.

I feel like slapping people who are emo. Feel like slapping people who pretends to be helpless. Who victimize themselves. Who are wishy-washy. Who are not direct. Who play games (not games games. But you know).

Because to me, these people are just attention seeking lo*coughs*sers.

I detest them and they get on my nerves.

Get over yourself. Get things done.

Whatever.

It's precisely because of my character that I am not a girlfriend material. Most of my guy friends tell me that. I am more fling material. Haa bloody haa.

scotchey!

AI NI OH~

Hehs. Haven't said that in awhile(:

And whatever that is bugging you, it will get better okay?(:

Besides, I will be here to bug you always! Especially next semester! 2 same classes! *roars*

2nd Week of Intern.

The 2nd week saw the introduction of a temp staff. I have no idea why they still need a temp staff but that's none of my problem.

I can't remember how I got through this week. But this week was slightly nicer than last.

Talked quite abit to my supervisor. About phones. Her kids. Family. Lotus Notes. Junk Food!And those kind of stuff.

Something interesting happened on Friday. I called PA Helpdesk to set up my Lotus Notes account. So I called and gave this guy my office and extension number. BUT! After I hanged up, I realised it was the wrong number! And I couldn't call him back because I don't have his number or name!

Then I realised that I can communicate with him via the desktop since somehow, we are sharing the same computer/domain/whatever. What he does, I can see. Vice versa. So I quickly opened notepad and started typing. From there, the two of us started chatting while he helped me set up my Lotus Notes account.

Yeah.

Pictures for this week! Not much though.

early in the morning.

I'm the junk food princess in my dept!
My supervisor is the champion-.-

Have you noticed how blue the sky is these days?
Even when it is going to rain, it's still BLUE!(:

random shot on my way to the washroom.

It looks like a spaceship/cupcake/over flipped pie top.

I've realised that my workplace may be 5 minutes walk away from the nearest MRT station, it is a pretty good place to look at the clouds. Because there's no buildings around! Just lots of trucks-.- I should take a picture of them next week!

Yups. I am shifting desk next week *sigh* The owner of the desk I am using now is coming back. Bummer. I like that desk! Oh wells.

Celebrated by buying this from NTUC -



Quiet Saturday at home(:

Been having some thoughts. If they are still around tomorrow, I'll post them. If not, *shrugs*.

What happened in the lift.

Last week, after the first day of work, I went back home as usual.

The lift came and I saw an Indian pushing a bicycle and running towards the lift. So I held the door open and waited for him. The bicycle was so huge that I was practically plastered to the lift walls. Eww.

Anyways, once the lift door closed, the Indian asked me some really personal questions. Like, "Did you just come back from work?", "Where do you work?", "What time do you start work?", "What time do you go to work?" and "How do you go to work?".

The first two questions were okay. Because I'm used to being asked by random "strangers" who knows that I am the daughter of the Econ uncle. So yeah. I answered the first two questions but after that, I tried to skim over the questions but he kept asking and asking and asking. The same question over and over again.

I was pretty freaked out! But luckily, the lift door opened and I was able to escape! *phew*

But that's not all! This Indian now pushes his bicycle past my dad's shop everyday and will stop outside the shop. Look in, smile and wave at me!

Okay, maybe he is just being friendly. But isn't it kind of too friendly?

And the worse thing is, this guy lives on the sixth floor! It's where the lift stops! So I am bound to walk pass his house on my way home everyday:S

I can't wait for the LUP (Lift Upgrading Project) to finish so I don't have to walk pass his house. And I know this sounds mean but I can't wait for my dad's shop to close because when it closes, I don't have to pretend and be nice to random strangers.

Note: I am not being racist okay? If it's an ang-moh/Chinese doing the same thing, I'll be freaked out too!

MSN conversation.

Sometimes, I have the random-est MSN conversation ever.

There was the one with Sivan on Sunday -

the sociable anti-social. -

HI SIVVVAAANNNN!!!!

[b]siv[/b]

hey shan

[b]siv[/b]

hahhaa

[b]siv[/b]

why r u so hyper?

the sociable anti-social. -

hahas

the sociable anti-social. -

i have no idea

the sociable anti-social. -

maybe cause my bedsheet is pink now!

the sociable anti-social. -

lols

[b]siv[/b]

i guess i haf that effect on ppl

[b]siv[/b]

:P

[b]siv[/b]

erm.. there is a correlation btw the color of the bedsheet and hyperactivity? HMM

the sociable anti-social. -

maybe we can conduct a research about it!

the sociable anti-social. -

wheees~

And then, there's the one with ber last night. I can't remember how we get there. But here's part of the conversation -

				the sociable anti-social. -			sigh
				the sociable anti-social. -			i m brain dead!-.-
				ber -			so am i
				ber -			haha
				ber -			we need intellectual stimulation
				the sociable anti-social. -			noooo
				the sociable anti-social. -			i need a good massage!
				the sociable anti-social. -			i have a creaky neck
				the sociable anti-social. -			hahas
				ber -			come my house
				ber -			got massage chair
				ber -			haha
				the sociable anti-social. - i need a good neck massage.			can i fedex it over?
				ber -			DHL la
				ber -			more reliable
				ber -			oh wait
				ber -			fedex is the one with the
				ber -			"we live to deliver" slogan is it?
				ber -			but DHL is ANYWHERE ANYTIME
				the sociable anti-social. - i need a good neck massage.			really meh?
				the sociable anti-social. - i need a good neck massage.			dumbo still around?
				ber -			hahah
				ber -			i don't know
				ber -			the stork maybe?
				ber -			since singapore has a low birth rate
				ber -			he's probably going out of business
				the sociable anti-social. - i need a good neck massage.			the beak will break!
				ber -			could do with some extra $$
				ber -			wah lao
				the sociable anti-social. - i need a good neck massage.			bird flu bird flu!!

Hahas. YES! I <3 random conversations with my friends(:

Desktop backgroud(:

Every summer, I feel like I am having an out of body experience. Going through the motions and all. Experiencing stuff but not really experiencing stuff. Hmm.

And it's in summer that I feel that my shoulders are really broad! Hmm.

Anyways, I am a tad narcissistic these days. Look at my wallpaper!

Hahas. Pictures taken yesterday(: I really like them (god, I sound so self-centered!). And I really like that phrase! So yeah.

And for a self-proclaimed PowerPoint expert, I am pretty slow. I realised I can insert a "Photo Album" into my presentation! Wow! And while experimenting with that function, I saw something -

ALRIGHT ALRIGHT! I know I know. I am loving myself too much and my skin is as thick as the elephant's.

Huishan, over and out!

Exhausted so I think I better head to bed. Especially since I am giving tuition tomorrow after work. *yawns*

JIAYOU JIAYOU!

I came here wanting to write about Victoria's Secret 2007 Fashion Show. But I'm too lazy now ;p

Oh, how I wish I had that kind of body and legs. FWAH!

The Writer's Blog.

I started a blog that I will update occasionally when I have scenes and pieces of stories in my head.

Too embarrassed to leave the blog add here. So if you want to know the address, let me know via MSN okay?

It's really really noobish though.

That's my bra not my nipple, sir.

On one of my crazy bra-spree (yes, I have bra-sprees!), I bought two very cute and nice bikini-like bras. It has creases and folds in the center. Really pretty, trust me. To let you have a better idea of how it looks like, I have tried my best to draw it out.

It kind of looks like this -


So if I wear a top like this -

The folds of the bra will show. And it will look as if my nipples are showing!

So I realized that 60% uncles or guys who walked passed/by me will look at my chest and a momentary smirk will appear on their face.

The thought that appears in their head will most probably be, "Oh my god! This must be my lucky day!"

I mean, WTS!

And these guys/uncles are retarded! Why?

Because after you take a second glance you will actually see 2 or 3 more folds! So it's obviously not my nipples!-.-

I used to get very irritated by the glances but now I'll just glare at whoever is stealing glances at the chest.

Someone should get me a t-shirt that says, "That's my bra not my nipple, sir."

Seriously. Singapore guys need to get a life.

Radomise Me!

Have to wake up in approximately 5 hours?

*sigh*

Long weekend was spent rather fruitful-ly? No vacation or nuts. Just cleaning my room, baking and hanging out with the siblings.

The sister unit was super generous today and treated the brother unit and I to Swensens and Haggen Daz! Wowee! We ordered 2 flavors of ice-cream each. I got Raspberry Sorbet and Lemon Sorbet. The siblings were complaining because they think those are some weird ass weird flavors. But when the ice-cream came...

The two dumb dumbs gobbled up the two flavors before I can say, "That's mine!"

!@#!@*$@#&$@!)!@(

Ohwells.

I am heading to bed now!

Cookie delivering tomorrow!Whee~(:

Chocolates.

Chocolates really do make me a happy girl.

After a 65 record breaking days without chocolate, I broke the ban last week with ber.

But, that was just the tip of the ice-bergs. Baking chocolate chip cookie today made me consumed a huge amount of chocolate.

I WAS FORCED. FORCED!

And it's just like..like...letting a recovering alcoholic into a bar and flooding him with alcoholic drinks.

I AM DRUNK ON CHOCOLATES!!!!!

You will find out why I post when I post that post tomorrow. I think I make sense and all. The post might sound sombre. But to me, it sounds like I am gibbering and I am drunk.

Oh no. Oh no. Oh no. Oh no. Oh no.

This chocoholic might be back in business.

HELP!!!!!!

PS I Love You

It's a sucky show and I am only 18 minutes in.

I love the book. I adore the book. I would date the book if it's a human. I read it 3 times!

But the movie sucks.

The starting is like BLAH already.

The book started with Holly lying on the sofa, crying and yearning/trying to get Jerry's smell back. And how she called his voicemail just to hear his voice. It got me tearing in the first chapter! But the movie started with what?! SEX! I'm like ERM...

And the part about getting the night light came way too soon!

*sigh* I am going to stop watching soon.

Everyone should read the book! So that you will know how sucky the movie is!

I think I am going to stop watching now. And get the book back from bestie to re-read it again!

Parents Generation.

(This is the really drunk post)

I'm hating the fact that Blogger doesn't allow us to time our post. So I am seriously considering moving over to Wordpress. But we'll see how that goes.

I'm typing this out on a Sunday night (if you are really anal about timing, then it will be Monday morning) and I will probably post it on Monday night.

I am probably falling from my chocolate high so I am starting to feel a little tired. And after a crappy re-make of my favorite book (Review: PS I Love You), I am a little cranky and sarcastic. If you are interested, I stopped watching the crap-ass movie after 30 minutes.

Anyways, I was reading my friend's blog and I noticed something.

This may not be true for all people but I realised that people from our parent's generation, are not really accustomed or comfortable with showing their feelings. Especially for their kids. Especially if the family falls in the lower/middle income group.

So what they do to express their care and concern is via scolding. Yes, my darlings. Through scolding.

For example, you are sick to the point where you feel like if you sneeze one more time, your nose is going to drop off. The parental unit is probably worried sick. But they don't know how to show that. They probably think saying it out or giving you a hug is weird. And they are frustrated with themselves for that and worried sick. So what do they do? They scold you!

Like? Well, some common phrases you may hear -

"See lah! Bathe so late and still don't blow your hair!"

"Do you know that you don't earn money when you are sick?"

"Do you know that by not going to school, you are going to lag behind?"

When I was a teenager (gosh, I sound old), I find it quite hard to accept that. But as I grow older, I started to notice a pattern? And I gradually understood why(:

The parental unit still yells at me when I fall sick. They have even resorted to not talking to me when I fall sick! But I'm used to it and I know they still care. I don't get hurt by their actions. Most of the time. Yeah.

But seeing how hurt my friend is because of what her parents said to her, it kind of brought back memories?

Are your parents like that? Do they yell at you when you are sick?

Tomorrow! A post about...Shucks! I forgot what topic it was.

P/S:I think that I am a little drunk. From what? I have no idea. But I am blabbering, aren't I? My sub-concious is chanting, "Drunk. Drunk.Drunk" Oh, do shut up!

Huishan, OVER AND OUT!

Baking Experiment 2 - Cookies(:

Yes! I baked again(:

The brother unit asked why I am so into baking these days. Well.. I need to pick up a hobby so that I will stop feeling pathetic? Kind of(:

That aside. I went to NTUC and spent 15 minutes picking out what I want to bake on Friday. Initially, I thought I should bake oatmeal cookie but that sounded risky. Then I saw they have ready-mix for Sultana Cake!! But I thought that was too adventurous, so in the end, I bought this!


So yups(: I was quite surprised that this mixture don't need milk! It's just melted butter and egg!

And I am proud to announce that I break (broke?) the egg ALL BY MYSELF! *claps* I am so proud of myself! So anyways, stirring the mixture was a bitch. I didn't have a whisk so I used a wooden spatula and in the end, I got blisters on my hands:(

(Click to enlarge)

Anyways, here's how the cookies look like before entering the oven -

I burnt my 1st batch because I thought the cookies must be hard before I can take them out. So I left them in the oven for over 30 minutes!!! What an idiot!

My 2nd batch tasted like muffins because they were way too soft.

3rd batch was still too soft.

When I was about to put in the 4th batch, the brother unit told me to lower the temperature and increased the time.

And VIOLA! It was a success!

By then, the brother unit and I have probably tasted over 10 unqualified cookies or so each-.-

So all together, I have like 6 batch of cookies! Here they are !


Whees~ I am probably on a chocolate high now(I am so going to regret it later on). That will explain why I sound so hyper in my post.

I am going to poison scotchey on Tuesday after work! (:

Anyways, I would like to thank the brother unit for being my lab rat today! Even though he called me an idiot for not experimenting with the temperature and baking time-.- Heh.

Ohwells. Huishan, over and out!

New Banner(;

The sister unit went to church camp not too long ago and brought back some magazines about the church.

Was randomly flipping through one of them after work when I came across this phrase-

"Consistency comes from being grounded in God."

And I really liked it so I've decided to use that phrase for my banner(:

With that said, I can't stand the way my sister keeps trying to "force" me to go to church and to get myself baptized.

The thing is, I believe in God and all. I mean, I went to Sunday school (or is it called church school?) every week until I turned 12! But I just don't like the idea of going to church every week.

For now, I'll just continue to pray and all that(:

Internship at PA - Week One(:

*zoom zoom* And the first week of intern is over!

I feel that I am very underutilized at my workplace. I am doing some stuff and mini-projects but I am not learning anything new. AND! I end up teaching my colleagues some stuff about blogs and photoshop. Oh wells.

While everyone complain about being over utilized and over loaded with information, I am feeling jealous! I would rather be overworked!

With that said, my colleagues are pretty nice people. Mostly above 40. And they are really funny. Interaction between them and me is still kept to a minimum but that is improving gradually(: I love my supervisor too!

I managed to change my work hours from 8.30 to 8am. Which means I end work at 5.30 instead of 6. Not too bad. Especially since I need to give tuition on some days. It also mean that I can spend more time in the shop since we have only one month more to go before bidding it goodbye for good.

On the first day, I wore formal skirt, long sleeve blouse and heels. WAAAAAAYYY over dressed. I'm serious. When I stepped into the conference room, everyone stared at me like I am some weirdo. *sigh* My clothes are more business-formal? My colleagues' dressing are not as formal as mine! Hmmm.

On the second day of work, my supervisor told me that all interns are allowed to wear casual wear (read: jeans and t-shirt) to work! Whees~ Music to my ears! So for the rest of the week, I wore jeans and racer-back! BLISS!

Here's some random picture:

As usual, I have my favorite girls on my access card holder(:

Utterly bored.

On a rainy day.
My colleague went, "Is it raining indoors?!" and another went, "So cute!"-.-

This traffic still have the old button!
You have to press with your finger and not your fist/palm/fingers.

My first goodie bag from one of their our events!

The little clips found in the goodie bag.

Fresh milk is getting cuter! I love the cow!!

Yups. As the weeks go by, I hope to learn more? Perhaps more about how the SPOs work scope and how they go about doing their stuff. Hopefully. But I really doubt I will?

Anyways, I am looking for a winter internship (year-end internship), so if you know of any, let me know ok? I need to learn more than what my current one is teaching.

Because this is the second time I am working in a government board!

ANTM 10

Okay, I know none of you watches ANTM so it's pretty safe for me to have spoilers and whatnot here, right? I guess this is the one benefit of having zero friends following US reality shows -.-

Just when I was thinking that models these days are getting thinner and thinner, the winner of ANTM is a plus-sized/full-figured/normal woman! *whistle blows* Totally rocks! (:

The other girl in the Final 2 is really really pretty too!

Other than these comments, I guess ANTM is still pretty much the same as all the seasons before.

Rating: 3 models out of 5 (catch it after all the other nicer ones!)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MABEL!!!!

Singtel F1 grid girls.

All right. Backside itchy and stuck in office with nothing to do, I entered Singtel F1 Grid Girls competition. As a joke.

Guess what? I got shortlisted. WTS!

The person called during lunchtime and I made some lame excuse that I can't make it for audition.

Oh why oh why! When I join things for fun, I get in and when I really want something, I don't!

Like BAF! My specialisation!

Now what?!

Oh yeah!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, JEROLD!

(:

Thanks for saying that women looks older as they age! *evil glares* Lols.

Why Lost is so good?

While watching Lost and debating with myself whether to believe what Ben (one of The Others) was telling Locke, it strikes me why Lost is so good. Why viewers keep coming back even after Season 2 was a flop.

It's because it's engaging? Let me elaborate.

We are familiar with shows like Gossip Girls, Grey's Anatomy and whats-that-show-with-Marcia Cross. After all the melodrama and back-stabbing and oh-i-love-her-but-she-loves-him, we start to feel kind of bored and get the been-there-done-that feeling, no? Besides, all these dramas are always revolving around more or less the same issue (Season 2 was kind of a flop because it kept revolving around the blardy hatch!).

Then comes Lost! Woohoo~!

This show leaves you in suspense. Makes you think and ask questions. Makes you guess and so when we guess, we want to know if our guess are correct. So, we keep going back to the show in the hope of verifying our guess. When The Others tell a lie, we want to see if we can outsmart the producers/writers/characters by not believing that lie! (I always always believe in the lie! DUMB!)

Of course, I think what the producers have learn from Season 2 is that you can't lead the audience on forever. Eventually, they will get fed up and stop watching/watch selectively. So they start inserting small mysteries that gets solve in one episode!

I don't know if these episode/mysteries have always been in place, but I just started noticing them in Season 3. Okay, just last night when I sneaked online to watch one episode. It was the episode called, "Exposé" about Nikki and Paulo. I don't know if their stories will be tie into future episodes, but my curiosity was pretty satisfied last night. And that episode has sort of refresh my appetite for Lost :D

Beside, there's the lies told by The Others! It's so ingenious! Mixing truth and lies together. Even though they are ultimately telling a lie, the minute amount of truth in them makes them all so believable! You never know when what they are saying is the truth or the lie and you end up debating with your friends (if they follow the show as well) or yourself (if you are watching alone, like me).

Of course, there's also the tiny love triangle between (of?) Swayer, Kate and Jack to satisfy the girl in me. Humor usually comes in the form of Hurley and the nicknames Swayer uses to call people.

Then there's the little surprises that totally blows you away! Woohoo!

My expectations for Lost is slowly building up again. So hopefully, it will not disappoint me and squash those expectations!

So how's Lost for you? Love it? Hate it? Can't be bothered about it?

i sneaked online tonight to watch an episode of Lost. i have to say season 3 is slightly better than season 2! okay, MUCH better. season 2 was pretty much crap. i think i skipped half the season!

they buried them alive? *horrors*

Tweet Update(:

Because I may not be online at night for most of the week nights, I have insert my Twitter updates on the right side of the page.

So if you do miss me so so much or are just curious what clumsy accidents I have gotten myself into, just click through the Tweets(:

Morning Laugh(:

I haven't been really chatting with my council juniors since J2. But I have (still am) been reading their blogs(:

And they are still making me laugh. My goodness.

*sigh* I miss them. My whole council board!

[Picture of whole council board will be uploaded soon]

if it's possible, i am more tired today than i was yesterday or the day before or ever since i started NTU.

i think i should walk to the vending machine and get myself a can of coke.

must. resist. temptation. of. coke.

Twitter Avatar.

Okay, maybe not avatar for Twitter only but across most, if not all, social networking site.

Apparently, it's "advisable" to have just one picture/avatar or whatever that appear at the side next to your name and on your profile.

It helps people to recognize you from network to network. Like, "Oh! There's that guy standing among the wall of leaves again. He's on Twitter too!" or "Oh! There's that girl wearing the Starbucks color and holding a Starbucks cup!". Something along that line.

Hmm. Then I am the dumb dumb le, because I have different pictures for all my social network account. Except for Facebook and Blogger (but it's not a social networking site right?).

Oh whatever. It's still raining so I can't head to the loo washroom because I am lazy to carry an umbrella! YES! There's no toilet washroom in my office. We need to travel to the washroom!

Over and out.

Random.

Got home last night and helped the parents in the shop till 8.30pm.

Went home, had dinner and fell asleep in front of the TV. Snooze like a pig, man!

I was so sick of the internet (I spent the whole day yesterday surfing!) that I didn't even removed my lappy from the bag. I think for the next few days, I won't be coming online at night. Seriously, how do people spend 18 hours online and still find something to do?

I wanted to play games but Theme Hospital just seem to tedious. And casual games like "Build-a-lot" and "Carrie the Caregiver" is losing it's appeal.

So I just spent last night flipping through IKEA catalogue (AGAIN!) and reading before falling asleep at midnight. Yes, folks! Midnight! The girl who always sleep at 6am, slept at midnight! Go get your 4D numbers now! You can always sms me for 4 numbers @ [insert number].

Nothing much to report on(:

The Brother's 17th(:

The brother's birthday coincidentally fell on Mother's Day this year(:

Everyone know what the siblings and I got for my mum right? If not, check it out here. The mother's reaction was quite funny.

But overall, she's quite happy about the gift(: So yes! It was a success *pats on my back*

So the sister unit relied on me to think about what to get for the brother unit. I was cracking my head on Saturday! Wanted to make a mini-model of his "ideal" room for him but in the end, due to the lack of materials, I made a cardboard voucher!

I tried to draw the room from IKEA catalogue -

The real picture from the catalogue.

The one I drew. Nice?

Here's the final product -

The front. Really ugly and messy.

The back. Quite ugly too.
After drawing the table, I was too exhausted-.-

So when I handed it over to my brother, he went, "$100 only ah?!". Erm..Yes? The sister unit and I are very broke eh! Hahas.

But he was quite happy as well. So! *another pat on my back*

In the past week, I have squeezed out 4 gifts - Mabel's, Mum's, Ber's and Brother's. I am broke both financially and creatively. Spare me! *hides*

Education - The Solution for the Lower Income Group?

I took a module called, "Wealth Management" this past semester and my professor, Kiap (as I like to call him), is pretty enthusiastic and concern about the well-being of the lower-income group in Singapore. He really brought the situation of the lower-income group into focused. Brought us me to the attention of just how serious the situation actually is.

I used to think that being in the lower-income group probably just means that you have to tighten your wallets more tightly than the rest of the people. But when the class started planning the monthly expenditures and living expenses for these group of people, I realised how serious it is. Can you imagine feeding 6 people with just an income of $800 per month? I can't.

I used to think that my family was bad. But apparently not.

Anyways, Kiap seems to think that education is the key to helping the lower-income group get out of the vicious cycle (I refuse to use the phrase, 'poverty cycle').

But I beg to differ.

On paper, education seems to be the perfect solution. I mean, get educated -> get a good job with a good pay -> some meticulous wealth planning with the pay -> better life for the kids -> educate the kids -> they get good jobs and repeat cycle. After a few "generations", VIOLA! They are out!

Really that simple? Not really.

After the 10 years of compulsory and heavily subsidised education, what percentage of students from the lower-income group actually choose to take the university route? How many of them actually don't feel the pressure to actually take the poly route so that they can start earning their own dough and lighten the load of their parents?

With a diploma, it's harder for them to secure a high-paying job. It will take them so much longer to attain a pay that is sufficient enough for them to actually do a little bit of wealth planning.

I am by no means saying that choosing the poly route is an inferior choice. Because if given the choice again, I would have gone the poly route myself. Taken up "Mass Communication" as planned since I was 14 years old.

Besides, during the 10 years of education, kids from the lower-income group have to work to earn pocket money. Do they have the time to study? And if they have the time to study, do they have the money to hire a tutor to get that extra push?

Even if they have gotten into university, they are still at a slight disadvantage. All they can do is to get an education loan and study. They can't afford to go for overseas exchange (it cost at least $11 000 to study in the US for a semester!), overseas immersion programme or much less go overseas and stay for an internship.

So when they graduate, all they have is a degree. But a degree is no longer enough to satisfy employers, ain't it? Employers are looking for people who have been overseas, exposed to overseas culture and...erm...culturally resilient (not quite. I can't think of the word at this moment).

In addition, they don't have the 关系/the contacts. While some other graduates may be able to get a good job via their parents/godparents/relatives, these kids have to really go through interviews, look through Recruit and go from door-to-door asking for a job.

THEN! They end up in a job that provides a slightly better pay but just enough for them to pay their education loan and living expenses.

Then there is the "load" on their pay. With their wages, they have to pay for their education (either for poly or university). Contribute to their family. Support themselves. Miscellaneous deductions. By the time every thing has been paid for, they have very little left. Not enough for them to invest. Or even build up an emergency funds.

So see. Education may not work.

Of course, the government has been really generous with their subsidies and all that. But something more needs to be done. But what?

Till someone comes up with a solution, I guess education will still remain as the "best solution".

Do you have any thoughts on these? What are some of the other solutions?

my 40 minutes are up. time to brush my teeth and go to bed(:

tomorrow will be a better day!

well, at least i have my darling lappy with me. so it's definitely going to be better than today!

My Baking Experiment(:

I have been going on and on and on about wanting to bake since the start of 2007. But every time I set aside a day to bake, I fall seriously sick. So I thought I was "cursed".

But! I finally baked on Friday!

I baked this -

Okay, I guess it can't really be considered as baking since I didn't do it from scratch. The whole flour, butter, sugar and all. But I have to start somewhere right? Take this as a practice to see if I know how to use the oven.

I was screaming when I cracked the eggs-.- My mum was laughing all the way. WHAT?!

Here's a step-by-step pictures!

I mixed the flour, eggs, oil and milk like there's no tomorrow!

The rinsed blueberries!(:

First batch all ready for the oven!

I had only one tray so I had to split the muffins into many different batches! And I forgot to buy those paper cups so I had to smear lots of butter at the bottom-.- And I have to wash the tray after every batch! I hate the smell of detergent but I did it in the end! (: Next time, I am going to get those paper cups!

Waiting in anticipation! *fingers crossed*

First baked was over baked and burnt! 烧焦了！！

I cut out the burnt top and stacked them up!
The bottom was still edible! But really ugly! Look!

The second batch came out not too badly.
But I had to cut out some burnt part.

The third batch was much prettier!
The mother came home just when I put this batch into the oven.
Both of us stood in front of the oven and stared at the muffins.
Determined that they turn out better than the last two batch-.-

Ber's birthday presents(:
(Mostly from the third batch of muffins)

The rest are for family consumption(: *yums*

So yups(: Huishan can bake!!!! Hees.

I am going to try cookies next. Ready mix as well. And after that, I am seriously going to start from scratch.

I have been getting quite housewife-y these days. I even asked my mum, "Maaaaa, want me to help you fry an egg? Tofus? Cut vegetables?" and my mum refused profusely because she knows I am hopeless! *laughs*

To deter me from going near the stove, she has left the oven out in the kitchen and constantly remind me that baking is much more fun. Erm...

My brother was scoffing when he realised I didn't bake from scratch. He went, "I made a pizza from scratch!" and then proceed to stuff a muffin into his mouth.

Heh! BLEH! I will win you someday! Wahahaa.

PA starts tomorrow!

My PA (professional attachment) at PA (People's Association) starts tomorrow!

A little jittery and have no idea what to expect.

The brother unit tried to make me feel better about the pay by saying, "People at MacDonald's only earn $3.50 per hour!" -.-

Oh yeah. One of the rejects by SIA got Weber Shandwick! Coolness. Oh wells.

Hopefully the job will be challenging! As challenging and fun as possible ok?

I am already thinking of sourcing for some sort of intern for December. But it's only one month. Hmm. I'm thinking of Seventeen magazine. But we shall see?

If you have any "lobangs", let me know!

Anyways, Prof Lee Hon Sing sent all BAF students an email -

Hi guys,

Hey, how are you! :) Guess you have passed the exam ordeal… That wasn't so hard after all, was it? ;) Have you watched Ironman with your classmates yet? Haha oops I am not supposed to promote any specific movie :P

Well the next BIG thing is probably your PA. Are you excited about it? ;) Have you planned what to wear? Printed your internship name cards yet? Haha, that's a little bit exaggerated. Nonetheless I do understand how important this PA is to you, because it is YOUR PA, and it means the world to you. Therefore I sincerely wish you very good luck and a very happy and fulfilling PA experience. I would love to go to your workplace, have a business lunch with you and hear your war stories. But during this period I am loaded with another heavy task, so I have my limitations. Regardless, you can always MSN me at (his email add) okay?

Just to share an old story with you. Two years ago a BAF student got pretty "freaked" out when his PA bank asked him to come up with a credit analysis of the marine industry. So he MSNed me on how to do a credit analysis and which NTU library database to use. I was thinking like… "the bank wants a marine industry credit analysis report out of a $400/month intern?" Haha, after 2 weeks of hair-splitting and extreme stress, then this student realized that what his boss was REALLY asking for was to find a consultant to do this credit analysis report. So all the 2 weeks of stress was really unnecessary. Nonetheless his boss was quite appreciative of his hard work and let him present the final report before the board of directors. So this story (fiction or real regardless), tells us not to get stressed up too much okay? Be sure to understand what your boss REALLY wants! ;)

Haha, just keep positive. Learn the wise words from the Lord of the Rings!
"You cannot choose what you are put into, but you can choose how you respond to it."

Haha, cannot resist myself -- I am also giving you guys a summer reading list. Some of you have asked for it, so I spent like 5 days and consulted a few of my colleagues to come up with this list. Below is a brief description, see the attached for more details. Many of you may find difficulty speaking in an interview or doing small talk in business gatherings -- this is mostly likely because you have not read enough fiction yet. Reading non-fiction does not really help you to talk, only fiction does. Furthermore these are the books that well respected in the finance industry and are good conversation topics. So your hard work in reading them would not go to waste.

Guys, at this stage of your BAF school life, you are just 4 months away from sending out your first resume that can determine your future career, and 5 months away from attending your first real job interview. Your dream employers will be doing their job market talks in August and they will probably start their interviews in September. So in this period, it would be good for you to do some soul-searching about what career you really want, balancing your dream and your capability, and polish up your resumes. The PA is a good time to learn about what the industry wants. Talk to your PA boss or some related managers on how to get hired, what qualities they are looking for, and how to do a "killer" cover letter, resume and interview. In the past many interns secure a job position before the PA ends. It makes good sense to the company because they have already invested by training you on the job. So if you are not really that "detestable", they'll definitely consider you above some unknown would-be fresh graduate.

Haha, I must be getting old… I talk so much :P Well again all the best for your PA. Keep cool. Keep confident. And keep positive. Take good care and have fun! :)

Best Regards.
Asst Prof Lee Hon Sing
Director of Undergraduate Programs, Banking and Finance

Nice eh? I don't know. He might like students with good GPA better but hey! How many professors actually send out emails before the start of each semester, before the start of exams, during Christmas, during CNY and all other major events?

Oh wells. Off to stone abit. Back later!

Say It Again - Marie Digby

Was on the bus to the MRT station on Friday and heard this song on CNA's Primetime Morning. The singer sounded surprisingly good considering that she was playing the guitar and singing without any help!

The song got stuck in my head the whole day! It has replaced "Take A Bow"!

So enjoy!(:

Move in a little closer
Take it to a whisper
Get just a little louder

Say it again for me
Cause I love the way it feels when you are
Telling me that I'm the only one who blows your mind

Say it again for me
It's like the whole world stops to listen
When you tell me you're in love

Ber's 21st(:

Met up with the woman at 6pm on Saturday for dinner.

I absolutely love Bakerzin! For their delicious desserts and of course, excellent super crispy pizza and Italian sodas! *drools*

We had desserts! Lookie!

2 ice-creams, 2 tapas and 1 panna cotta(: Yes! I ordered Strawberry Fondue! So, I have to reset my "clock" at the side. Too lazy to do it now! Soon soon! The dessert was more expensive than our main course! XD

The woman insisted on treating, so...MY TREAT FOR MY BIRTHDAY OK?(:

Walked around Novena and realised that everywhere is closed! !@#!@$#5123^&%

Headed to Starbucks at United Square and stoned and chatted(: Nice nice! I love going out with this woman because she don't mind going to a cafe and chill! (: Hees.

Whoo~ I found my love at Starbucks! Raspberry Cream Frappuccino! Frappuccino is coffee right? But it doesn't taste like one! And it's nice(: Better than all the other bitter coffee. Hahas.

All in all, a nice day(:

A Look Inside My Head.

I don't know if it's normal or not. But here's a look inside my head. My thought process to be exact.

Someone:"So let's decide on this topic and interview students."
Thoughts that strike at the same time:
- How are we going to analyse the data obtained? Objective of the research.
- Moral of the story?
- Why students?
- What are we going to ask?
- I really hate using students as my test subjects again. I like the difficult one better.
- Oh, live with it, woman! Face reality!

Someone: "Let's cancel tomorrow's gathering."
Thoughts that strike my head (at the same time):
- Oh no! B is spending the night at her aunt's place in Pasir Ris cause we were suppose to go there.
- Everyone is going to think that it's just another round of our squabble (A and me).
- What about the food C and B bought?!
- No! It's A's birthday!
- How did things get so bad? All I wanted was for things to be special for A!
- Is it my fault? Gosh, I feel horrible.
- What about my muffins?
- What the shit! *sigh*

Parent: "We are going to sell the shop."
Thoughts that strike my head (at the same time):
- How does my parents feel about it? Sad? Glad? Relieved?
- Debts! How are we going to pay them?
- Early redemption of loans. Implications?
- Brother's school fees!
- Where's the money going to come from?
- I don't want my parents to work outside! Especially my mum!
- How is it going to change our family dynamics?
- Will we still be as close?
- I need to start working, pronto!

Yups. These are the relatively simple thought process. These thoughts only causes mini-thought-jam. Wait till you see the massive ones.

I think too much huh?

Exhausted.

For once, my first post of the day does not contain the name of the day before and a smiley face.

Friday was rather okay. Slept for like 2 hours plus before dragging my ass out of bed and scoot off to school. My clock was a little cuckoo so I left the house late. Sheesh.

Came home. Helped around abit in the shop and then started preparing somethings for tomorrow's picnic.

And then, I received all the crap from the 4 of them. I'm really sorry.

Everyone is whining about how tired they are and how they might not be able to wake up in time. How they have "sore eyes" that requires them to come at a later time. Coming up with new suggestions at the last minute. Forgetting that the whole purpose tomorrow was a picnic and NOT cycling. Everyone forgetting what they need to do or bring or whatever shit. How they just came home and that it's not fair that the person with the "sore eyes" can come later.

HAA. BLOODY HAA!

I don't give a fuck (sorry!) about how tired you are. I don't give a shit (sorry!) about what freaking illness you have (which I think is a lie by the way). I don't care what time you just came home.

Stop giving me crap, people. Stop talking about yourselves. Stop expecting me to do things for you guys. Stop. Just stop.

Have you ever thought about me? How tired I am? How much effort I have put in to pull all these together?

Do you think I have nothing better to do than just sit at home and think about our next gathering? Seriously, I think you guys do.

Let me tell you how tired I am, okay?! Let's not talk about the week. Let's just talk about today.

I slept for 2 hours! Travelled all the way to NTU. Had a FYP meeting with my tutor and a meeting thereafter with my FYP mates. Came home and helped around in the shop. All along trying to cheer my parents and grams up because everyone has been pretty down since the shop was sold. After which, I had to come home and prepare stuff and food for tomorrow. And I had to field all your questions.


OH FUCK. You want to cancel your own birthday gathering? Go ahead. Be my guest. I have had enough. By canceling it, you are just turning all my "accusations" true.

I just finished bathing like 2 hours ago! And I still have a truckload to do before I sleep. Get all the documents needed for internship.

* I should really clean up my language.

disappointed?

Not entirely. Slightly disappointed with the girls.

Once again, I am the one coming up with ideas for the birthday gifts, coming up with ways to celebrate, making decisions about the day and what to do on the day itself.

Sounds like I am back in JC days where it was just me buying all the gifts for all their birthdays and the rest just chip in.

I am happy that Sivan offered to message the girls about the events (thanks, babe!). But I just wish I didn't had to do the follow-up.

Making sure that everyone is bringing something. Making sure that everyone knows what time to meet and where. Organising meet-ups to get the gift. Making sure that everyone knows what is the main purpose/event tomorrow.

And what pisses me off the most is that San messaged me at 9.30pm to suggest another way to share the cab fare. It was a good idea but guess what? She expects me to translate this new plan to the rest of the girls. Not much of a problem if she had told me earlier but NOW? It's too late! Especially since the girls have a habit of not replying or replying at a tortoise rate. So yeah.

To cut the story short. I was not supposed to be organising this gathering. But I end up spending more sms-es and having to settle more problems. I should have just bite the bullet, suck it up and organise the whole thing by myself right from the start.

*sigh* We'll just all have fun tomorrow! I guess.

it's a constant struggle to remind myself not to go there. not to get sucked into that spiral of thoughts. not to get emo.

be practical, woman!

learn to love your life before it gets taken away (weird sentence construction).

Thursday(:

I really should get creative or more informative with my title.

But you have to admit that naming the post by the day is one of the better non-informative and non-creative way of naming your post.

Slept all the way till 4.30pm. Really tired. Actually, I woke up at 9am, realised how achey my whole body is and promptly re-entered La-La Land(:

Met up with Mabel at 6.30pm(: Went to Poh Heng to get my mum a gift for Mother's Day! I swear I have never spent so much at one shot. I am broke:( Gold is freaking expensive, I tell you! Even the sister unit was shocked beyond words when I told her the price. But I still think it's a rather good idea.

See, my mum sold her 嫁妆 a few months back. So I thought it will be nice to "replace" it? Not replace replace but you know.

So here's what I bought -

Luckily the siblings unit agreed to share the present. If not, I will be really REALLY broke. Heh. Hopefully the mother unit will like it and not yell at us XD

Kbox session with the girls and the JC guys was quite nice and fun(: We played 猜拳 and 海带 after singing for like 4 hours? I am terribly and horribly bad at these games. I keep losing so I had to eat all the peanuts. Sheesh!

Everyone ran out of stamina around 1am (5 hours of singing). We started singing really old songs and the girls made me sing, "榕树下". Yes, that old song from before we were born. By the time 1.15 am roll by, we really are singing any random songs. Those that are impossibly high and those that are impossibly hard to reach.

Left around 2.30am and YouWee drove us home. Thanks, dude(:

Now, I am exhausted! Waiting for my hair to dry before hopping in bed for 4hours. Got to be in school by 10.30am tomorrow*sigh*

SUNDAY IS RESERVED FOR ME TO NUAR AT HOME!