Explode.

Ever since last Friday, I have been facing everything pretty calmly (if I do say so myself). While my sister handled the calls, I had another "job".

Reassuring everyone that things are okay. Things will be okay.

As the week drags on and the number of conflicting messages the doctors are giving, everyone is stressing out abit. Worries and questions are piling up. So everyone is behaving rather weirdly in the house.

My brother is back to his ridiculous self. The 霸道王 who yells at everyone. And THAT alone is enough for me to handle. I have to go around cleaning his mess. Like after he yelled at my sister, I have to go to a) comfort the sister, b) calm him down and c) get them to talk to each other again so the mother unit won't worry.

When can I stop being strong for everyone?

There's so much I want to say. But I don't know where to start. I wish to back in Deyi where I don't have to pretend to be strong because my friends are there to support me. It makes it easier for me to go home and be strong.

Whatever. I am losing my ability to express.