A Little Explanation.

I think one of my group mates from last semester just read my post I wrote a few months back.

Maybe she's angry about the whistle-blowing part or something. FYI, I didn't pinpoint anyone at all when I was telling the tutor. But at the end of the day (and what I didn't write) was that I told my tutor to let all of us have equal grades.

Or maybe she's angry at all the bitchy bits I wrote. But please take into account that I was tired and stress out when I wrote all those entries. I felt that all of your grades depended on me. I know that's not true. But I felt that way and I don't want to disappoint any of you.

At the end of the day, I realized that it all balance out. She took as much responsibility in another module as I took in this module. I realized that and I apologized for saying some stuff I shouldn't have said. And thank you for taking up more responsibility in that other module.

And when I am talking to you, I am not acting or pretending. I am those kind that whine and bitch and all the hoo-haa. After that, I am okay and I treat you like a normal friend. I don't bear grudges. And I don't pretend.

And if it makes her feel any better, my grade for that module was a B-. So yups.

Anyways, everything is over le, isn't it? We all got our final grades and the new semester is coming up. Let's just let it go, shall we?

I already have.

Random.

3rd post for the night. This is something lighter than the 2nd post.

AB213 paper was hmmm. All I'll say is, "I STILL CAN'T DO WRITTEN EXAMS! FLOOD ME WITH PROJECTS, PLEASE!!!" *ahem* Yes. No worries, I am not sad about the paper or something. I never let my papers affect my mood. Thank god, for this 'ability' or I will be one HUGE emo-monster now!

On my way back, I saw that the step-on-the-ground-and-the-images-move thing was unoccupied!!! Don't know what it is? Here -

Ohmygod! So I discreetly walked over the 'screen' and see the popcorn scatter :D Heh.

Then when I was about to leave, that little girl came and started running about and stomppingg her feet. She reminds me of Baby Chloe. So I took a picture:D

Yups(:

From JPod by Douglas Coupland,

"How to create your name if you become a stripper?"

Ans: Just figure out the least expensive form of sugar or sweetness you ate today.

Mine? 旺旺 Cola Chews. *anime sweat drop* How sexy eh? What's yours?

The War Cry? Nah.

First paper tomorrow (Tuesday)! Yeah! Let the exams start! Because once it starts, it means I'm closer to the end. IF that makes sense.

Bringing my laptop to 8Flags tomorrow for reformatting. Seems like everyone will be heading home for a serious bout of mugging after AB213 tomorrow. So, I'll be heading to 8Flags alone. It's scary. Don't ask me why. 8Flags is probably the only place that I will try to avoid going when I am on my own. *shrinks away*

How's my preparation for exams? I am literally taking one paper at a time. 3 papers in 3 weeks. This means that I can a) have a FULL day of rest after each paper and b) still have more than enough time to study. BUT! I do envy people from SMU:( *sigh*

Application for local exchange is on again. Should I?

Tweets for the day (excluding replies) -

• can't wait for next sem. i'll no longer be a finance student! i'll be a psych student! GO, MINOR! for now, die finance, die!!! about 22 hours ago

• TRYING to fix my windows problem. I cant install Adobe Reader or iTunes! URGH. HELP!!!!! about 8 hours ago

• okay, using Foxit for now. will get the computer reformatted tmr. any advice related to backing up files? about 7 hours ago

• i hereby conclude that I am down on tech luck these days! everything sucks from fireworks to windows problem to googling! about 6 hours ago

• i know i sound like a broken record. but! i really cant wait for the reformat tomorrow. about 4 hours ago

My twitter activity rate is still not very high. Basically, I am actively "talking" to 2 people. Following 7 people, out of which 4 do not use Twitter at all and 1 whom I am just plainly following and vice versa. Hahas. See! I don't even need fancy tools/application to do my analysis for me(:

I need to set up a Google Doc account for my fyp project to facilitate sharing of articles/files/whatnot. I'll probably need to teach them how to use it as well?

Okay, enough of crapping. Bedtime. Please don't rain tomorrow.

Oh yeah, here's my war cry. Ready? AIYA, HUAT LAH! -.-|||

I bet you guys can imagine my actions, tone and expressions just by looking at that phrase right?! It's amazing how unglam I can be even when I am online :D

Mugger Saturday.

I planned to wake up at 1.30pm on Saturday. I did! But I woke up, went into the living room to 'announce' that I am awake and then subsequently, went back into my room and snoozed all the way till 3.40pm.

BUT! The good news is..I managed to complete what I am suppose to complete today(: And I realised, laptop is bad news.

Even though, it's been a mugger Saturday, it's quite nice?

This was my nick (click for larger view) -

Nothing wrong, right? Apparently, there is. Here's what Kelvin said:

KêLVïÑ™®»» said:
ur craving for pizza started wit a kiss??

KêLVïÑ™®»» said:
lol amazing

-.-||||

And then while talking to ber, I realised something! Lookie -

ber's display picture looks like my Audrey Hepburn's picture! Hahas. Please don't kill me, ber *runs away*

I went to Edventure to check if Ulrike has uploaded our proposal presentation and I saw this -

Only scotchey's presentation is up! And it's uploaded TWICE! scotchey, Ulrike must have liked your presentation very much ;p

Yupsyups. Anyways, here's my tweets for the day -

• i think my AB213 lecturer sucks because a) she has lousy presentation skills b)teaches the wrong stuff. thank god, i took HP102 last sem! about 2 hours

• ok, my sister just came into my room to tell me that she just had a super loud fart. EWWWWW~ I dont need to know that!! about 2 hours

Hahas. The siblings went shopping (AGAIN!) while I was stuck at home :( But the mum was very nice! She brought me supplements and drink and even offered to help me to switch on the lights when it was getting dark. Aww~ I am such an easy girl to please(:

The brother unit starts school on Monday! I don't know how he feels but I am feeling pretty excited for him(: I hope that his poly days will be much better than his secondary school days (it was rather sucky).

Okays, ANTM episode 8 and then bed!

Would you choose a school based on global ranking or culture?

I had my AB214 presentation today. Basically, we are supposed to come up with a topic and pitch a proposal to Ulrike and the class.

Mine was NTU Open House 2009.

Ever since last year, I think NTU's Open House campaigns are frankly...well, crap. Utter crap. Our posters only feature students and these students look too posey-worsey with super-imposed/artificial backgrounds. We are frankly relying too heavily on the Open House to dispel (o.O) and counter any misconceptions that people have about NTU. And seriously, people don't really learn much from Open House, do they?

So I suggested some new measures that will increase the presence of NTU and stuff to counter these misconceptions.

Then, Ulrike commented, "Do you think it is worth the effort to go through all these troubles just to increase NTU's presence? Because after all, we are still receiving an over-whelming number of application every year. Just by looking at our global ranking, school's like SMU will definitely lose out regardless of how good their culture is. " Her underlying meaning is that students will choose us because of our ranking and having a excellent culture is secondary.

Due to time constraint, I was not required to answer that question and I didn't get a chance to comment on her comment. And I am kind of glad because I am pretty sure a NTU v.s. SMU debate might ensue since Ulrike is so pro-NTU and I am not. Opps.

But, what I don't get is, why is culture secondary? Why just rely on one factor to attract students? Putting our eggs in one basket, are we?

What would you choose? A school with a good global ranking(NTU) or a school that has an excellent culture (SMU)?

Personally, I would take the second choice. Then again, maybe because I really don't like NTU and the grass is always greener on the other side.

Shallow post. But what the hell. I have AB213 terms and theories swimming in my head now.

The confrontation.

Oh yeah.

I finally pluck up the courage and blew that whistle. My tutor asked, "So, what do you want me to do?" I was shocked and didn't know what to reply.

I just said, "If the project is graded as a group, I guess I have to count myself as unfortunate and let them have the same grade. But if it's graded individually, then I hope that necessary adjustments will be made."

A pretty fair answer, I think? I was really so angry in the morning when I realized none of them came to class. To me, it just shows that they didn't care enough about our project. That's what propelled me to go ahead and spill.

We got another A for the report and presentation though. I'm so proud since most of it is my work(: Most, not all.

Angry.

This is a very pissed Huishan speaking.

Just this morning, on my way to school, I have decided to NOT tell my tutor about the free-rider problem.

But right now, I have changed my mind. Why? My group mates have conveniently decided not to come to class this morning. Why am I angry? Because the other groups are presenting today. I would like them to come to at least show that they care.

I don't really know how to describe how I am feeling now. But yes, they are all in shit now.

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Anyways, the group that "borrowed" my presentation outline last time just presented. They combined elements from both presentations last week. Can't complain.

And during Q&A, the roll-eye girl was 'prevented' from answering mine? I think. Impressed.

Blogging in terms of Tweets.

After 15 gruelling hours, I am finally done with my AB213 report! Yes, I feel like stabbing group mates. Two for not explaining the charts and one for not listening to what I was telling her and just chucking whatever theories she can get her hands on without applying.

I realised the main reason why I was so disappointed with my presentation on Friday. It was not because that I screw up the Q&A. But because my group mates forgot their speech, even though I practically wrote their speech for them. They just blanked out and clicked through the slides. Throwing helping words at the side, in the hopes of jolting memory failed. URGH.

Alright, I am going to blog in terms of Tweets (in chronological order) -

• late nights + being a camel (not drinking water) = 2 huge pimples on my forehead. total crap. any quick fix? about 11 hours ago

• drinking water like there's no tomorrow-.- about 9 hours ago
  

• aren't we Finance students? aren't we supposed to be good with charts and figures? my group mates sucks in explaining them!!! WTF. about 8 hours ago
  

• alright. even i am confused with the charts now. i think i should go take a bath to clear my mind. about 6 hours ago
  

• on the phone with bestie. a little break from my stupid report. about 5 hours ago
  

• back to the report. jiayou! flooding myself with tweets-.- about 4 hours ago
  

• quote by me to describe lousy grp mates: if you expect me to clean your shit, then at least, learn how to take off your pants. about 3 hours ago
  

• bernice chua is hereby given the responsibility of poking, bugging, kicking and *insert adverb* me until i send an email to my tutor! about 44 minutes ago
  

• you are also invited to join her. i will not let my group mates leech on me any longer. this is going to the tutor! about 45 minutes ago

• bedtime!! at last! putting toothpaste on pimples! hopefully it works!! oyasumi~ less than 5 seconds ago

• 91.3 FM is playing the national anthem!! OH NO!!!!! less than 5 seconds ago

Got the idea from kennethteo. But ah, his tweets looks much neater than mine!!!

Are you tempted to join Twitter yet? Join!!!! Alright, bedtime.

At ABC conference.

One of my FYP group mate thinks that ABC stands for Accountancy and Business Club-.- Noooo. It means Association of Business Communication!! Hahahas. And I was forced to keep her anonymous.

I thought we were supposed to hear a talk on Business Communication? But it feels like an award ceremony-.-

Anyways, I took a nap today. Okay, it's suppose to be my sleep. But I end up sleeping for 40 minutes only. URGH. I am sure I have taken a nap that last longer than that.

Drained. I feel dumb too. I was working so hard on my group mates' slides yesterday that I neglected my own part. It took me another 3 hours to groom my own slides and another hour to practise my speech. By the time, it was 5am and I need to wake up at 6am :(

I feel dumb because I realised that the presentation is graded individually!!! So I am basically helping to get higher marks:(

I am incoherent now. Hopefully I won't be during Q&A late.

Back later.

Done!!

I forgot what I wanted to say.

Anyways, woke up and started editing the AB213 presentations like a mad woman. Wanted to stop and rest but the brain keep saying, " GO GO GO! Edit. Rearrange. Simplify. Do your thing! GO GO GO!" and I stormed through.

After 12 hours of editing, I am finally done. At this point, I am more proud of my group mates' part than my own. Probably because I rearranged and edited quite a lot of their stuff. The whole, "You will only feel satisfied if the task was difficult" mentality.

Now, I am drained.

Oh, I remembered! 91.3 seems to be having problems with their webcast. I am going to storm into the toilet and get my small radio out!

They got my name right!!

3 person - Daryl, Weilong and Ulrike - got spelt my name correctly!With that said, it feels so weird to see my name on people's blogs. Even if it's just a passing remark or something.

I am super tired and I have yet to start working (properly) on my AB213 presentation! It's on Friday by the way. Took a look at the slides my group mates sent me, shouldn't be a problem, I hope. When it comes to presentations, I am very picky. I freak at the nitty-gritty things.

And my desktop is at its messiest. Take a look:


Anyways, I was googling for Guides' Law yesterday and got this:

Hmmm. Anyways, was stoning in front of the TV and watching The Ellen Show and saw something that looks like the Scout's Logo? And below the logo, it says, "Rebirth". Is that what it means?

Alright, back to my slides. Been a pretty normal day so not much to say. Counting to Monday - end of projects! *endures cramp and dance*

A crampy kind of post.

Woke up this morning (Tuesday) with horrible horrible cramps. 1 hour of shut-eye only. After having breakfast, I literally crawled back to bed to catch forty-winks. Instead, I end up curling up and whimpering-.-

Still! I dragged myself to school. Even though everyone is going, "Take medicine!", I didn't. Proud of myself. With that horrible amount of pain, I got through school and a horrible long project meeting without any medicine(:

In a sick and twisted sort of way, this is kind of like a way to test my endurance? To prove to myself that I am no weakling! And the pain just sorts of distract me from doing circles in my head. There's just me, the cramps and whatever-task-on-hand.

Project meeting was...how shall I put it...Expected? Everyone did the reading I assigned them and then after that, " I read! But I have no idea what I am reading!" So, yeah. I am the brain and thinking machine again. *fumes*

The meeting was 4 hours long for me. For the rest? Probably an hour or so. Why? Because they only ever pay attention when it was their part I am going through. At the end of the meeting, someone actually said, "Eh?! What did we do today? What did we complete?".

I was ready to kill. But yes, I AM A PATIENT WOMAN! So, I recapped the whole meeting. They are sending me their slides tomorrow. Hopefully everything goes well.

Dinner at Ya Kun@ Boon Lay with the girls after meeting. It was nice(:

You know, I am such a softy. I can find so much things that I don't like about a person but still get along perfectly well with the person. I guess I separate things clearly into "compartments". I may not like your lifestyle/working style, but when it comes to play, we can be the best of pals.

That's good, right? I "compartmentalized" my feelings :D That's how Tyra Banks function too. Heard it somewhere. Hahas.

Okay, better go.

coding.

It's 5.16am in the morning. 3 hours since I said I am going to bed.

But here I am, coding my survey. Tabulating and everything else.

If I don't do it, who will? Lack of initiatives from my group members.

Tips for working with Huishan #1 - Be initiative.

Tips for working with Huishan #2 - Be very initiative.

You know, maybe I should make it a law. Like how Guides' motto is "Be prepared" so Shan's motto is "Be initiative"? Idea?(:

Calm before the storm.

Someone adjusted the height of my chair (or did I?) and now it feels much more comfortable! No more hunching of my shoulders just to reach the stupid keyboard. The day went by quite alright. Sitting in my armchair reading (school and novel) with my legs propped up on my study chair.

Been reading up my AB213. Statistical analysis for research is a pain in my flat ass. Realised that we need to use SPSS in some ways and I can only think of one. Will try to think of more later.

Non-response from that group mate of mine. I just need your citation and references. How hard can that be? I mean, at least let me know you have gotten my message + email or something.

Anyways, I have just sent a 2-page long sms to all of them. Asked them to read up on the statistics chapter of our untouched AB213 Research textbook and to prepare some possible analysis that we can do. Hopefully they will come prepared on Tuesday.

I do not wish to hear, " I have no idea what they are saying. 我不会。" as an explanation of why they came empty-handed.

I am a volcano that's about to erupt. Plates that are about to diverge. Plates about to converge. All these plus all those scary earth movements you learn about in Physical Geography.

For now, I shall sit and wait.

test drive.

Went for my AB213 experiment and it was a marketing experiment.

The professor asked me why I didn't choose marketing since I am minoring in Psychology and I am interested in Marketing, I just stood there and gave a really crappy answer, " Cause I did better in FM than Marketing?"

I should have chosen Marketing! Never mind.

OH! I finally know how the sex position "London Bridge" looks like. Saw it on Facebook's Bumper Sticker. But I thought there's suppose to be 2 guys and 2 girls?? o.O

Opps. Am I being too straightforward? Ah, HECK!