Ber's 21st(:

Met up with the woman at 6pm on Saturday for dinner.

I absolutely love Bakerzin! For their delicious desserts and of course, excellent super crispy pizza and Italian sodas! *drools*

We had desserts! Lookie!

2 ice-creams, 2 tapas and 1 panna cotta(: Yes! I ordered Strawberry Fondue! So, I have to reset my "clock" at the side. Too lazy to do it now! Soon soon! The dessert was more expensive than our main course! XD

The woman insisted on treating, so...MY TREAT FOR MY BIRTHDAY OK?(:

Walked around Novena and realised that everywhere is closed! !@#!@$#5123^&%

Headed to Starbucks at United Square and stoned and chatted(: Nice nice! I love going out with this woman because she don't mind going to a cafe and chill! (: Hees.

Whoo~ I found my love at Starbucks! Raspberry Cream Frappuccino! Frappuccino is coffee right? But it doesn't taste like one! And it's nice(: Better than all the other bitter coffee. Hahas.

All in all, a nice day(:

A Look Inside My Head.

I don't know if it's normal or not. But here's a look inside my head. My thought process to be exact.

Someone:"So let's decide on this topic and interview students."
Thoughts that strike at the same time:
- How are we going to analyse the data obtained? Objective of the research.
- Moral of the story?
- Why students?
- What are we going to ask?
- I really hate using students as my test subjects again. I like the difficult one better.
- Oh, live with it, woman! Face reality!

Someone: "Let's cancel tomorrow's gathering."
Thoughts that strike my head (at the same time):
- Oh no! B is spending the night at her aunt's place in Pasir Ris cause we were suppose to go there.
- Everyone is going to think that it's just another round of our squabble (A and me).
- What about the food C and B bought?!
- No! It's A's birthday!
- How did things get so bad? All I wanted was for things to be special for A!
- Is it my fault? Gosh, I feel horrible.
- What about my muffins?
- What the shit! *sigh*

Parent: "We are going to sell the shop."
Thoughts that strike my head (at the same time):
- How does my parents feel about it? Sad? Glad? Relieved?
- Debts! How are we going to pay them?
- Early redemption of loans. Implications?
- Brother's school fees!
- Where's the money going to come from?
- I don't want my parents to work outside! Especially my mum!
- How is it going to change our family dynamics?
- Will we still be as close?
- I need to start working, pronto!

Yups. These are the relatively simple thought process. These thoughts only causes mini-thought-jam. Wait till you see the massive ones.

I think too much huh?

Exhausted.

For once, my first post of the day does not contain the name of the day before and a smiley face.

Friday was rather okay. Slept for like 2 hours plus before dragging my ass out of bed and scoot off to school. My clock was a little cuckoo so I left the house late. Sheesh.

Came home. Helped around abit in the shop and then started preparing somethings for tomorrow's picnic.

And then, I received all the crap from the 4 of them. I'm really sorry.

Everyone is whining about how tired they are and how they might not be able to wake up in time. How they have "sore eyes" that requires them to come at a later time. Coming up with new suggestions at the last minute. Forgetting that the whole purpose tomorrow was a picnic and NOT cycling. Everyone forgetting what they need to do or bring or whatever shit. How they just came home and that it's not fair that the person with the "sore eyes" can come later.

HAA. BLOODY HAA!

I don't give a fuck (sorry!) about how tired you are. I don't give a shit (sorry!) about what freaking illness you have (which I think is a lie by the way). I don't care what time you just came home.

Stop giving me crap, people. Stop talking about yourselves. Stop expecting me to do things for you guys. Stop. Just stop.

Have you ever thought about me? How tired I am? How much effort I have put in to pull all these together?

Do you think I have nothing better to do than just sit at home and think about our next gathering? Seriously, I think you guys do.

Let me tell you how tired I am, okay?! Let's not talk about the week. Let's just talk about today.

I slept for 2 hours! Travelled all the way to NTU. Had a FYP meeting with my tutor and a meeting thereafter with my FYP mates. Came home and helped around in the shop. All along trying to cheer my parents and grams up because everyone has been pretty down since the shop was sold. After which, I had to come home and prepare stuff and food for tomorrow. And I had to field all your questions.


OH FUCK. You want to cancel your own birthday gathering? Go ahead. Be my guest. I have had enough. By canceling it, you are just turning all my "accusations" true.

I just finished bathing like 2 hours ago! And I still have a truckload to do before I sleep. Get all the documents needed for internship.

* I should really clean up my language.

disappointed?

Not entirely. Slightly disappointed with the girls.

Once again, I am the one coming up with ideas for the birthday gifts, coming up with ways to celebrate, making decisions about the day and what to do on the day itself.

Sounds like I am back in JC days where it was just me buying all the gifts for all their birthdays and the rest just chip in.

I am happy that Sivan offered to message the girls about the events (thanks, babe!). But I just wish I didn't had to do the follow-up.

Making sure that everyone is bringing something. Making sure that everyone knows what time to meet and where. Organising meet-ups to get the gift. Making sure that everyone knows what is the main purpose/event tomorrow.

And what pisses me off the most is that San messaged me at 9.30pm to suggest another way to share the cab fare. It was a good idea but guess what? She expects me to translate this new plan to the rest of the girls. Not much of a problem if she had told me earlier but NOW? It's too late! Especially since the girls have a habit of not replying or replying at a tortoise rate. So yeah.

To cut the story short. I was not supposed to be organising this gathering. But I end up spending more sms-es and having to settle more problems. I should have just bite the bullet, suck it up and organise the whole thing by myself right from the start.

*sigh* We'll just all have fun tomorrow! I guess.

it's a constant struggle to remind myself not to go there. not to get sucked into that spiral of thoughts. not to get emo.

be practical, woman!

learn to love your life before it gets taken away (weird sentence construction).

Thursday(:

I really should get creative or more informative with my title.

But you have to admit that naming the post by the day is one of the better non-informative and non-creative way of naming your post.

Slept all the way till 4.30pm. Really tired. Actually, I woke up at 9am, realised how achey my whole body is and promptly re-entered La-La Land(:

Met up with Mabel at 6.30pm(: Went to Poh Heng to get my mum a gift for Mother's Day! I swear I have never spent so much at one shot. I am broke:( Gold is freaking expensive, I tell you! Even the sister unit was shocked beyond words when I told her the price. But I still think it's a rather good idea.

See, my mum sold her 嫁妆 a few months back. So I thought it will be nice to "replace" it? Not replace replace but you know.

So here's what I bought -

Luckily the siblings unit agreed to share the present. If not, I will be really REALLY broke. Heh. Hopefully the mother unit will like it and not yell at us XD

Kbox session with the girls and the JC guys was quite nice and fun(: We played 猜拳 and 海带 after singing for like 4 hours? I am terribly and horribly bad at these games. I keep losing so I had to eat all the peanuts. Sheesh!

Everyone ran out of stamina around 1am (5 hours of singing). We started singing really old songs and the girls made me sing, "榕树下". Yes, that old song from before we were born. By the time 1.15 am roll by, we really are singing any random songs. Those that are impossibly high and those that are impossibly hard to reach.

Left around 2.30am and YouWee drove us home. Thanks, dude(:

Now, I am exhausted! Waiting for my hair to dry before hopping in bed for 4hours. Got to be in school by 10.30am tomorrow*sigh*

SUNDAY IS RESERVED FOR ME TO NUAR AT HOME!

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO MY OLDEST+LONGEST+SINCE-PRIMARY-SCHOOL FRIEND!!

I LOOOOVVVEE YOU(: