hey folks, i may be moving to wordpress.com.

the evil people from Plurksville have convinced me over the past week that it is superior to Blogger. so i am trying it out for now (you know, i love you guys!)

the new address is - http://leeminencegrise.wordpress.com/

all my posts from here has been imported and transported over so yups!

le eminence grise. that's what i am.

About....*shrugs*

I am just blogging for myself this time.

On Sunday, I got so pissed with my brother's comment over my appetite that I yelled at him. He said some really stuff but in short, he said that I am just making it up to gain my parents' attention.

I was so pissed and hurt that I just told him that I wish he will have the same problem as me so that he will know how awful it actually feels. That it's not just an act. And, well. The brother went mad.

He started hitting me again. Nothing new eh. My mum had to hug me and shield me from him. But even then, he keep hitting. Sometimes, missing me and hitting my mum instead. Even though my mum shielded me, she still blame me. She said I shouldn't have provoked my brother*sigh* What's new?

It's at times like this that I just want to drop dead. When horrible thoughts crawl into my head. I just want to crawl into bed and sleep. To not give a damn. And to not pretend that I am okay. But, I can't, can I?

Here's the scars from where my brother grabbed me -


Holes/punctures created by his nails. I had to leave the house with plasters all over the arm. Yups.

Been to the doctor, but the appetite is not getting better. And now, I think I have an ear infection. BEH! I am tired. So tired this week.

The Prata Date.

One of the Fridays (4th July), some of us met up for Prata at The Prata House.

Okay, the prata there is not fantabulous. But...but...I don't know. I guess we just like it there? Especially since it's middle distance to all our house (except for bestie).

The place is PACKED! And it was so noisy! We tried to have one united conversation but! Saran can't hear me from his end and I can't hear him at my end that we just gave up and had 2 separate conversation with Juan (sitting in the middle) switching channels once in a while.

It was a nice enough gathering(: It was the first time in 1.5weeks that I actually feel hungry!

Anyways, here are the pictures (Saran finally sent it to me!) -

(L-R): me, bestie, sivan, saran, kelvin, joel

(L-R): bestie, sivan, saran, juan, kelvin, joel

the girls(:
(taken by Saran. Please don't tell anyone he's the President of Photography!!)

Yups(: It was a nice ending to an otherwise dull week! Meeting up with them are always nice and wonky!

About flings.

This entry has been delayed for one too many times. Heh. Procrastination anyone? (:

Anyways, I know some of you are going to judge after reading what I am going to say or write but do I care? No. You choose to read it so you handle the consequence *ahem*

Flings. One night stand. Booty calls. Whatever.

I don't think it's wrong to have flings. Because just like any other things, as long as you know what you are doing and you don't regret later, then it's okay. I mean, what is the difference between doing it with the boyfriend and doing with anyone else? It's just the stupid name/labels! It's the same. At the end of the day, you are still not married.

In my funny world, there's 2 types of flings.

Type 1: The Once-Over
This type is the typical one night stand. They see someone in the club/pub/wherever that tickles their fancy, have their fun and then it's so-long!

They will never see each other again. Easy-peasy-breezey.

In short, "We have our fun. Let's leave each other alone!"

Type 2: The "Friends-with-Benefit"
This is a little tricky. It kinda break the rule of, "Don't shit where you eat". Unlike Type 1, there can be repeats for this.

They don't necessary have to be friend-friends. But they are on each other MSN list and have a few common friends/acquaintance. The occasional chat online (both clean and dirty) and the once in a blue moon fling.

They function normally and civilly with/towards each other.

Now, this takes a certain degree of maturity to "do". If not....

It's like...Come on lah! We had our fun, so move on! Let's go back to being friends! It's really immature for you to purposely ignore me. What?! Are you scared that I will spill the beans? And tell people? What/Who do you think I am? Dumb? Idiot?

And do you think all the ignoring will go un-notice? That you are doing it tactfully? People are starting to notice, buddy! How does that reflect on/about you?

For goodness sake, GROW UP!

But I guess this abuse will have an advantage in the future/the next time they meet up.*poof* Fireworks!

But that's provided there will be a next time.

Incoherent. Blame it on the TV.

stop.

my appetite has not been good. i feel hungry once a day and that's about it? one meal per day would probably be enough. and i don't necessary eat at meal times.

but i have been forcing myself to eat at every meal time. even though it might mean that i will feel like puking afterwards. you know how you feel when you are stuffed to the point where you want to puke? that's how i feel. all the time.

but the family don't get it. yesterday, throughout the 8 course meal, they keep nagging me and nagging me. can you imagine having 5 people nagging at you throughout a 1.5 hour meal? non-stop.

my Sunday is spoilt.

Saturday(:

It's been a nice Saturday. When Friday rolled about, I thought this was just going to be another Saturday with me lazing around at home. But nopes!

Good news on Friday! Braces gone! Pictures up soon! Had a dental appointment today as well. Kind of sad to say bye to my dentist who is ever so nice and brotherly (:

Then I met up with cyn and mabel. Walked around Ang Mo Kio looking for cyn's perfect bed! Tired!

Then the sister called and we went to Tao's for dinner. 8 course dinner! *faints* But, they have the most excellent service! Post up soon (i think).

Then! Ling messaged me and asked if I wanted to chill tonight. Since I was in shorts and slippers, we couldn't go to a pub or club. So we went to Pitstop with the guys. After that, we drifted from Pitstop to Starbucks to McDonalds.

Had fun talking to them(: We should have more nights like this!!

I almost did something I shouldn't. Bestie is going to be so disappointed (?). But, I've gone from being tempted to being irritated. Oh wells.

Anyways, thanks @Janelle for listening to me rant on Plurk (: